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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 01:50

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She was in good health!

I write beautiful poetry .

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Why did i forgive my father ?

Especially a lifetime of it.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I was very sick at this time too.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

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Im dying but, im not bitter.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

How can I get over a break up?

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I will be 64.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

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The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Put me off passion for life!!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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So whats the point in blame.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

When she asked me how she looked .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I was 9 years of age.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

It was going to be , some day.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

My family never makes their pension either.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I have no regrets .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Comes on , in middle age.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I couldn’t, believe it.

But ive been too sick for many years..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Would this be the day?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

So, i spoilt her more .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

We all went to grammer schools

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

She married twice! .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She found it foreign!.

One cannot live in the past .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

She loved him until the end.

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Was to survive, this bastard.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

What did i know ?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

He knew the spot.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I think the readers, may guess!

I said to her

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Im still living with it.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

We were not on the streets..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I waited trembling.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I was seconnd youngest,

I don,t even have a pension.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I was scared of men, in general

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I could never make a relationship work though!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Ive learnt so much.

This is soul school!.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My life is so biszare .

Who then, do I blame.?

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

(And it was in our own minds.)

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

All the time i was locked up.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

As i do to all so called friends.?

But it wasn’t much.

She wouldn,t have been !

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But, we were locked up after school.

And i lived it daily.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He resisted the act ,that day.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.